Another day... Another crippling dilemma... I recently found out that this person from my school whom I like is single again. She and I haven't had the best friendship lately to be honest. She's been with a guy most of the time for 2 and a half years since I met her during sophomore year of high school. During that time, I've tried talking with her just so that we could keep in touch and stay friends. However, I usually screwed up by talking to her when I was upset and generally I would try to take pity from her that she hadn't tried going out with me at all for the entire time we'd known each other. Right now, I think she's really rather annoyed with me.
On the other hand, there was that other girl that I met at the church conference that i mentioned, but I found out she lives all the way on the other side of the city from me (about an hour away). I like this girl, but I don't want to try another long-distance relationship. My first girlfriend was like that and it didn't end well for us. I'd rather not have the same thing happen to this girl. She was very kind to me despite being quiet around many other people at the conference and I don't want to squander that.
Honestly, I just want to fix my relationship with this girl at my school and hopefully before we graduate in May, we could go out or something. She's put up with all the crap I've given her about not going out with me and she is still willing to talk with me, but it's become kind of tense whenever we talk, like she expects me to try and guilt her after I've been doing so for so long. I have written up a long text taking up 5 separate messages on my phone explaining my wish to just resume talking with her without all the tension and fixing our relationship.
I love this girl and her resilience and I think everything about her is wonderful, but there isn't much time left for me to fix everything. I want to date this girl before we graduate, but I realize that, first, I need to get back into her good graces. I just need some advice. What would be the best way to fix our relationship without looking like a suck-up or a jerk? I want to be as genuine as I can so she'll believe me when I say I want to fix everything. Also, should I send that text? How should I tell her?